“Would you like a little cheese with that whine?”

I see dangers in using this blog as a daily journal. If, as today, I sit to write my thoughts after my morning devotions I may encounter an uncomfortable fact. Often my devotions are in the form of spiritual ablutions. It is too bad I need so much correction from above but there it is. This morning after having read the biography of Hudson Taylor I felt very uncomfortable. He should be required reading for everyone who has a task appointed to him by the LORD.
Yesterday was Sunday and we had a friend come to church that we have been inviting for years. Very good, but for the evening service our one faithful family is off on vacation and there was only wife, son, and myself. We sang, shared some spiritual truths and retired into our apartment for the night. I am wondering what I am doing here and feeling very unworthy.
Now comes Monday morning. If I write my feelings of uselessness down and then correct them from Scripture as I would a paper journal my private life would be exposed to the world and I would not be the only one who knows how sad my pitiful existence is. Ah, well my wife knows already. (Using a little humor here)
We have an expression to use when someone is complaining. “Would you like a little cheese with that whine?” After all Brother Taylor went through I whine over lack of people in an area I refer to as “clinton country”. Shame on me. We will rejoice in the victories of being able to serve and the blessings of HIS care.